What is this about anyway?

imageYesterday I confessed, that I want to be obsessed.

Alright… so this blog is about what, exactly? Just a girl’s attempt to try to be a better Christian?

No, that’s not it. Because it’s not about me. That would be too much pressure.

I’m going to attempt to permeate my surroundings, my thoughts, and my life with so much of God, like He calls me to do, and simply see what happens.

Then I will write about that.

I will paint about that.

I will live that.

The kind of life we’ve all been called to live, but somehow in the complete out-of-control chaos of the world we live in, we’ve lost sight of that. We’re too busy to read our Bible. We’re too preoccupied with ourselves to focus on others (confession… that is totally my weakness… an introvert to my core, I think out aspects of my life , things that have happened, things I want to happen, until there’s positively no room to think of others in a “how are they doing and how can I help” kind of way. This is a problem. This will be fixed throughout the course of this blog. I hope.)

So, simply… I’m giving it all to God.

ALL. OF. IT.

I’m sure I’ll fall miserably at times.

But oh, how I expect to soar when He catches me.

Do you have to care about any of this? No. Of course not. Feel free to click the little x and keep on Facebooking like you were before  you found this. But, if you’ve read this far, my guess is that there’s a reason. Maybe you want to just watch me fail miserably when I do (and I will be honest when that happens)… but maybe I still have your attention because… you hear it, too.

The calm voice inside, telling you that this isn’t just a calling for some blogger named Stephanie. It’s a call for you too. The deepest call there is.

The only call that matters.

Can I take a moment and confess something to you? I’m scared. I don’t know where this will go. This will require openness and vulnerability, sharing scars and potentially losing friends…  But one thing I’ve learned since sharing a deeply personal story in my last blog, vulnerability attracts people. It helps people. It heals people.

 

So, let the healing begin.

 

 

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A Worthy Obsession

“Always, everywhere God is present, and always He seeks to discover Himself to each one” 
― A.W. Tozer, The Pursuit of God

Obsession.

It fuels us.

It drives us.

It gives us something to care about. Something to think about. When our minds just want to rest in a pool of nothingness, it’s that thing that yanks us back, not letting us go, willing us to center our thoughts on it, yet again.

Obsession is longing to know something so deeply, so richly, that you refuse to stop learning until you’ve learned all there is to know.

Obsession has elevated athletes to unprecedented greatness. It’s driven musicians to headline at sold-out arenas. It’s caused normally non-threatening people to scale walls in Hollywood so they could get an up-close peek at their favorite star.

In my 30 years of life, I’ve gone through many obsessions. In second grade, it was those little fun-shaped erasers. In middle school, ‘NSync. College, my now-husband (a totally valid obsession). Most recently, it’s been Rocky Road ice cream. And Fuller House. Really? I can do better than that. Because the thing is…

I want to be obsessed.

But I want to be obsessed with something that matters.

Something that is WORTH being obsessed over. And not just for a day. A week. A month. A year. It had better be something that I can follow for life. That I can trust with that much of my time and my energy.

Which works out perfectly.

Because there’s this guy. No, he’s not my husband. Well, actually, He is. His name is Jesus.

He wants to infiltrate my every thought, influence my every move, and inspire my every breath.

He wants my obsession.

And you know what?

He’s worth it.

 

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Hi! I’m Stephanie. Welcome to my blog. My goal is to point the world to Him. Because He is all that matters.